Elie (short for Eliezer) Wiesel- up until a couple of days ago, that was a name I knew mostly as a crossword puzzle answer. I guess I knew he was an author but had never read any of his work. Susanne, my daughter-in-law here in Lithuania, reads a lot, as do most members of the embassy community. Several of the wives here gather occasionally to discuss a book they have read recently. Their choice this time was
Night by Elie Wiesel. Since it's such a short book, Susanne thought maybe I might want to read it and join them for their dinner and discussion. If any of you have ever read this book, you will understand how it might affect me. Perhaps it has affected me even more because I am here in the area of the world where this tragedy occurred. Elie Wiesel is a survivor of the Holocaust. This short book is his memoirs of the events he endured as a young teenager. He makes no attempt to clean up the grotesque circumstances but he also reports factually, without Hollywood-type exaggerations to create horror. It took me longer than it could have to read the book because I had to read it in small sections. Often when I read a book, I lose myself in the "world" created by the author- picturing people and places and almost living the events. I couldn't let myself do that with this book. When at last I finished it, I immediately went to the piano to play some hymns, then I sought out conversation withh my family and wanted to play a game to get the book out of my mind. That has caused me to wonder, if I have had to make such an effort to forget merely a story I have read because it causes me such pain and revulsion, how did the survivors or even rescuers or, most especially, perpetrators, ever go on living with such memories? When we went on our walking tour of Vilnius, our guide pointed out what was formerly the Jewish quarter. At one time there were so many Jews in Vilnius that it had the name Jerusalem of Europe or something like that. During the years 1941-1944, 90% of the city's Jewish population was exterminated. There are still some Jews here but not many. Russia, when they came in after Germany, was looked on as a "rescuer", especially to the Jews. But after going to the KGB Museum, I have to wonder if life under Stalin was much better for anybody here. My heart bleeds for the people here and in the surrounding areas who have endured such pain. No wonder they don't smile when you encounter them on the street. I know I can tend to get deeply philosophical and that is tedious to some people. I'm sorry if my ponderings here are unpleasant to read. But what I am discussing is not just a remote philosophy or opinion of types of government or vague idea of some author. People have
justified total cruelty to other human beings for no sane reason! Saddam Hussein idolized Stalin and believed in similar tactics. Now people all over the world are jumping on George Bush and the US government for getting rid of Hussein. At the time of WWII many people wanted to avoid getting involved. I remember hearing of people being mugged in NYC within earshot and even sight of other people who "didn't want to get involved". I understand the phrase people often use "we can't be the world's policeman". But I don't understand how we can, or should, avert our gaze and not try to do something to help others. I used to weep when pictures of Ethiopia first came to the tv screen in the 1970's of the little swollen bellied children with flies swarming about their faces and limbs so thin their knees and elbows looked hugely out of proportion. I wanted to send money to help but knew, rationally, that I could not erase hunger from the world. Maybe sending our loved ones to Iraq and Afghanistan, just as they were sent to Germany and Poland, will not erase evil men from the world. But maybe it can give hope to good people that they are not alone in the world. Maybe it can send a message to the bullies and power-hungry despots that they cannot reign in terror unchecked by the rest of the civilized world. Maybe people may believe in different "gods" but I want to choose a loving God. I want to encourage and help and love.