THIS is family.

We just finished an awesome family reunion. We were blessed with excellent health, safety, and weather. Our last night there, one of the older girls lost her class ring on the beach. The older kids all tried to find it with flashlights but it was too dark. The next morning, nearly everybody in the family was out there doing all they could to help find the ring.

It was just so touching to me that everybody was caring enough to spend a couple of hours searching for a small ring that really only had sentimental value to one person. A few members of the family stayed inside to finish packing and cleaning but even doing that was a way of supporting the effort because they did it without any resentment. I am so grateful to have such a wonderful family. I'm sorry we weren't able to find the ring but we have an alternative solution which is, again, with the support of the whole family. I love them all so much and am so happy they all love each other so much.

Sets and subsets

     Most people in the world would acknowledge that love is a powerful force. Being a Christian, I have read and continue to study scriptures which refer to love, probably the most famous being Christ's admonition to "love one another even as I have loved you". The ancient Romans had specific terms for different types of love, recognizing that love for a parent is not the same as love for a friend which is not the same as love for pink flowers, etc. I have found that opposing opinions, while creating dissension which makes me uncomfortable, also motivates me to analyze exactly what I believe/feel/prefer and why. As I am exposed to different people's concepts of love, I have come to an analogy that I want to share with whoever might be interested. In terms of the arithmetic concept of sets and subsets, love would be the large all-encompassing set. Hate would be a separate circle, a separate set. Inside the circle/set of love would be all the many types of love, one of which would be the love in a marriage. (Love between two people who are not married but simply living together wouldn't be included because it doesn't involve the same commitment or deep covenants. It might be really passionate and feel like it will last forever but if it doesn't inspire the covenants with witnesses so it really isn't the same.) 
     Marriage involves many aspects of relationship including but not limited to: friendship, counseling, learning and teaching, support in various forms (such as financial, moral, physical), recreational partners, co-nurterers of offspring, comforters, job sharing, and on and on. God made us with the ability to reproduce, as long as there is a male and female. He also made us with a physical desire to enjoy the pleasant sensations attendant with sex. That desire is at different levels in different people and at different times in our lives. Biologically, it assists in reproduction. If sex wasn't so pleasant, why would people do it when the result could be undesirable, e.g. diseases, pregnancy which causes great discomfort for nearly a year for females to say nothing of the agony of birth, offspring which can interfere with plans the adults have and cost lots of time and money? Sex is a biological function but humans are more than biological entities. We have an element that doesn't exist in other living things. Many animals come close because they seem to feel emotions toward others of their species as well as other species. But humans are unique in their advanced state and that is because we are not just creations of God, we are His children, His offspring. Sex is so powerful in that it allows us to conceive and produce more biological entities which will house the spirits of other offspring of God. Sex also causes us to attach ourselves to others emotionally as we grow and develop in a mature love as opposed to just lusting physically or coveting the undivided attention of someone. It grieves me that sex is portrayed in media as simply a recreational activity that "sometimes" leads to a decision to make a commitment. When sex is not in the subset of love called marriage, it is not truly in the larger set of love. It is a different element altogether. If sex is not for the purpose of reproducing or for bonding a male and female longterm, it is destructive. Growing up in the 60's and 70's I tried to go along with the cultural attitude of free love or "if it feels good, do it". But I soon realized that it was "fun" for the body (biological entity) but it raised havoc with the mind, emotions, and spirit. There is more to us than physical reactions. If we don't acknowledge that, we cause ourselves grief.

War or peace

I love to learn but I have come to understand that not everybody does. There are far too many people who would prefer to simply be comfortable or have a "good time". Too many people think that learning things requires going outside their comfort zone. I truly believe that education is essential to anyone who is interested in doing any more than taking up space on the planet. This does NOT mean that everybody needs to attend college and acquire a degree. There are people who have a degree who are every bit as ignorant and ego-centric as some high school dropouts. To me, education is curiosity, empathy, meditation, and hard work. I have been enjoying some recorded college lectures on a variety of topics. The professor who recorded a series on events in history that have changed the world pointed out that there have been 4 "great teachers", namely Socrates, Buddha, Confucius, and Jesus Christ. None of them wrote any books; their students or followers recorded their words. None of them waged a war or anything like unto it in order to force their ideas on anyone else. They all spent a lot of time observing, listening, pondering, then would share what they came to understand with others. They all taught 4 basic life principles essential to happiness, peace, and success: wisdom, justice, courage, and moderation. Wisdom is the ability to understand and make good use of information and intelligence. Justice is the awareness of making things fair, doing unto others what you would have them do to you. Courage is the determination to stand by what you know to be true, have integrity, and live according to what you learn despite the consequences. Moderation is avoiding going to extremes in behavior or speech leading to divisiveness, hatred, even war.
There have been many wise people who have lived on this earth. There have also been many foolish people. I realize that not everyone has yet acknowledged that Jesus is the Son of God, our Mediator, and our Savior. They will some day. But for now, it would behoove everyone to at least be aware that many wise (not just LEARNED) people have come to a consensus that we can all live together if we follow some basic principles that promote peace, understanding, and greater wisdom for all. Martin Luther King read about and followed the examples of Jesus as well as Ghandi. He was a catalyst for major societal changes without killing, oppressing, stealing, or cheating. There is a saying that anyone who refuses to study history is doomed to repeat it. We surely do cause any and all tragedies  throughout history to be repeated when we improve technologically (science, medicine, transportation, communication) but refuse to advance our basic nature to challenge, rebel, contend, be greedy or cruel, or to be just plain selfish. People are just as dead whether they have been killed with a club or a nuclear bomb. People are just as unhealthy if they try to cure themselves with blood-letting as they are if they refuse to stop smoking or consuming copious amounts of alcohol. People are just as ignorant if they burn all books without reading them as they are if they have access to literature but spend all their time watching junk entertainment. Why can we not learn and advance? We each have the freedom to be whatever kind of person we want to be. When we fall short of learning and implementing principles of goodness and wisdom, we are wasting time- stuck in our infantile stage as potential great beings. If anyone reads this and understands what I'm trying to say, let me know.

Boy Scouts of America

We recently returned from a visit with our daughter, Angela, and her family. She has three sons, all of whom are active in Boy Scouts. We were privileged to attend the arrow of light ceremony for Joshua, the youngest. It wasn't super fancy but it was so wonderful to see both of his older brothers there to greet him as he "crossed over the bridge" from Cub Scouts to Boy Scouts. They would probably be considered pretty average boys to most people. As their grandmother, I obviously think they're more than average. They get good grades in school, they are friendly, helpful, and all the other attributes Boy Scouts are supposed to have. These boys have good parents and two sets of good grandparents- by that I mean honest, hardworking, supportive, loving, and involved. But even with all that, the Boy Scout program helps to encourage the boys in so many good ways. No matter how good parents are, they can always use a little help. It's good for the boys to recognize that honesty is not just a relative principle. (That could actually be a pun! I meant relative in comparison to varied opinions on behavior but it could apply to the idea that there are people other than your parents and grandparents who believe in being honest!) It's good for them to work with other adults and peers who strive to live up to wholesome ideals that Boy Scouting has always promoted. Not only can they learn to be resourceful (building fires, putting up tents), physically strong (hiking, swimming, biking), and helpful (doing service projects) but they learn to be true to their word and cooperative.
When my sons were in Boy Scouts, I thought it was a good program and did what I could to support their participation, including paying for Scout camp, serving as a den leader, and attending functions,etc. Ammon wasn't particularly interested in going for his Eagle. James might have but his life was so busy- OUR family life was so busy- that it just didn't make the top priority list for him to achieve the rank of Eagle. Now I realize that the achievement of Eagle is pretty important. It is evidence of time and effort and persistence in a worthwhile accomplishment. I'm sorry I wasn't more supportive of my boys making Eagle. I don't know whether the three boys in the picture above will make it to Eagle but I hope they do. But anyway, I'm really glad they're active in Scouting even if it makes their lives a little hectic at times. Currently, all 9 of the boys I call grandsons are active in Scouts. I'm glad.

Continuing to seek understanding

It's a rare child that never expresses a desire to be older at some point. They look at growing up with envy expecting a greater freedom and power, with no comprehension of the increased responsibility entailed. Good parents will gradually allow children the freedom to make choices, sometimes allowing them to fully reap the consequences, other times stepping in to help. The ultimate goal is for that child to be able to be fully independent at some point seeking only reassurance and occasional advice from the parents.
God has promised us that we will receive "all that He has" someday. As his children, we often think in terms of the old songs that mention streets in heaven paved with gold. We yearn for the power and wealth God holds but rarely consider the responsibility He has. When we first learn to acknowledge His existence, we turn to Him to seek forgiveness for our weakness and follies, we bow to His wisdom, and learn to accept chastisement. (knowing He loves us and we need to learn) Often in our stages of early spiritual development, He is fairly quick to answer our pleas. But, as a good parent, He gradually steps back so that He takes longer to respond and allows us not only to make our own choices but also to hold accountability in accepting consequences of those choices. When Jesus Christ was experiencing incredible pain on the cross, after dealing with ridicule, physical abuse most humans will never feel, and undeserved hatred, He at one point calls to His Father to ask why He has been forsaken. We don't make it that far before we cry accusingly to our Father in heaven for help in troubles or release from pain. As we mature, we better understand what to ask for. We need to ask for the strength to keep going, to complete the learning and experience we came to this life to gain, not to be excused from the exercises.
The thing I look forward to the least in "gaining all the Father hath" is the opportunity to be hated, not in spite of being good, but because I am good. Persecution is a sample of what that will be like. When we have the responsibilities that come with the power and wealth our Father in heaven has, we will have children who will shake their fists toward us and be angry and resent all that we are doing for them, totally clueless as to why it's good for them. That has to be hard to deal with.

Still learning!

The world in general is fairly discouraging. There are people who claim to believe in the basic goodness of mankind and offer observations of technical, medical, and other scientific advancements. All that may be true but, morally and spiritually, I'm not so sure we human beings are headed in the right direction. There is much of anger, vengeance, lust, greed, and total lack of moral compass in the world right now. I was so grateful to be able to hear the words of peacemakers/servants of God/followers of Jesus Christ this past weekend. The men and women who spoke during the General Conference of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints were inspiring to listen to because they were all inspired in what they had to say. As an added bonus to the encouragement, guidance, and reassurance their words offered, the opportunity to have the windows of heaven opened so that I could receive some personal whisperings from the Holy Ghost gave me further enlightenment. I know they were to me but they weren't necessarily totally personal. The sparks of enlightenment I received were about general principles that anyone, and everyone who wants to understand more of what God understands, could benefit from. They weren't necessarily connected to specific themes or words being given at the time, but they are interesting concepts.
I realized that God doesn't usually answer immediately and concisely to guide our decisions and actions; that isn't because He is busy or delaying our satisfaction. It is because we NEED the chance to think it out for ourselves- to search all we that we already have at our disposal: past experiences, ability to analyze, principles already understood, and the writings of prophets. If we are to become like He is, we need to exercise our own abilities, not just remain in our current state of ignorance and weakness waiting to be told what to do. We need to gain a clearer understanding of how and why things work so we can better make our OWN decisions and judgements. Being an obedient servant is a step in the right direction but it is NOT OUR ETERNAL GOAL! Our eternal goal is to be like He is, wise, omniscient, etc.
When we do need to rely on heavenly guidance, we need to be in the right frame of mind and open to righteous wisdom. The Lord can not dwell in unclean temples. If we are polluted in our minds (dwelling on unrighteous thoughts or memories), or our bodies (influenced by drugs not related to a doctor's prescription even to the point of "simple" caffeine), or our emotions (anger, lust, all major "natural man" type feelings), the Holy Ghost- who is a member of the Godhead- will not have as much affect on us. We are all far from perfected and while in our mortal state are subject to temptations and weakness. However, if our pure intent is to overcome the natural man and come closer to our Father in Heaven, He is more than happy to help- as long as we are doing our part and not just waiting for Him to take over.
The authority to act in the name of Jesus Christ, the priesthood, has been restored to the earth. Often we tend to feel that, since Jesus healed any and all who asked when He was living as a mortal, priesthood members should be able to do the same. We know that Jesus explained that at least one of the reasons He was able to heal so many was to show His power- to identify Himself for who He was/is- the Son of God. I think there is another reason why He was uniquely able, or really more WILLING, to heal everyone when priesthood members now don't/can't and that is - it is a foreshadow or type. We know that the scriptures are full of allegories and parables and symbols. Christ physically healed all when He was on Earth because He can and will spiritually heal ALL WHO DESIRE IT. His atonement covers anyone and everyone who asks.
These thoughts may not mean as much to others as they did to me. I don't even know if anyone will ever even read them! But it was beneficial to me to ponder them and take the time to word them so it makes the concepts better integrated into my mind. I continue to seek wisdom. I know that God loves us and because He does, it has to be painful or at least uncomfortable for Him to see us in pain and sorrow. Yet it is absolutely essential that we all have our agency, including Satan, and experience opposition in all things. That inevitably results in pain and sorrow for all of us. How can God stand it? How does He resist "fixing" everything? How does He let us struggle the way we NEED to without giving in to the heartfelt desire to take care of us? I know it's wisdom to let us gain our own muscle and mental ability. As a mother I have often wanted to step in and "do it" for children when they're struggling. But how can a kid learn to tie their shoes if you always do it for them when they cry and get frustrated and may even miss their bus? I keep reaching to better understand wisdom and how to apply it.

Sun City observations

I realize a "senior community" is not unique. There are probably more areas filled with AARP members in the country than I could ever imagine. Still, this is the first time for Russ and I to be living in a community which, by law, you must be 55 or over to permanently inhabit. We are having some difficulties adjusting. We have gotten so we usually use the self-checkout registers in the grocery store. The times we use the regular lines, I struggle with the natural tendency to want to "help" the person bagging my groceries because they are usually older than I am. Since our first time ever coming here to visit my parents, we have suppressed smiles at the sheriff posse cars that drive by with two white haired people, bent over in their seats but looking intently ahead, male or female, in uniform. They don't carry weapons and are mostly just to check on suspicious events or vacant homes or businesses. Still, I'm not sure what they would do if ever faced with a criminal. There must be a record number of health care professionals per capita here. There are countless hospitals, medical centers, doctor offices, and medical supply stores on nearly every street.
Our church is different than any we have ever attended. The front of the chapel during sacrament meeting is basically a "parking lot" for walkers, all lined in a row along the knee-wall in front of the podium. Today I was startled by the voice coming over the speakers when I bowed my head for the sacrament prayer. It was a YOUNG voice! Apparently someone's grandson was visiting and was old enough to offer the sacrament prayer. There is no primary or young men/young women organization. However, we have a primary president who has a counselor and you notify them ahead of time when you will be having a grandchild visit and they are very happy to prepare a lesson for however many students they end up having. There are no "dead spots" during fast and testimony meetings. These people have lived long enough that they have quite firm testimonies and are not shy about sharing them. Sign-up sheets for anything are about the same. Russ and I are accustomed to feeling like we need to volunteer for anything and everything because we are some of the rare ones willing to commit our time and efforts. Here, if you are not in the front row when the sign-up sheet gets started, it may be full by the time you get it. We have a bus chartered to go to the temple once a month. There is some concern that it isn't very full. That is because, at least in part, lots of our ward members are already at the temple early or will be coming later because they work there at least once a week every week, not just once a month.
There are sad things about living here. The number of funerals is not nearly as sad as the endless care centers (formerly called nursing homes) full of people who are just basically waiting to die. Most of the residents rarely leave the buildings, except maybe on a stretcher to go to the hospital for some procedure or other. Many of the residents have few visitors. In fact, the longer they survive, the fewer visitors come to see them. Russ and I wonder why their lives are prolonged. If I were God, would I simply go ahead and zap with a fatal heart attack the old man with the colostomy bag and catheter bag who can't even sit up straight anymore and can't carry on a conversation? Who is learning something from this and what is being learned? Patience? Endurance? Tenacity? Loving kindness? Since I don't yet have the wisdom God has, I just continue to read, study, pray, and serve whomever I can whenever I can. That's what the church members, and some other community members here are doing. When I can't do any of those things anymore, maybe I'll understand things I can't understand now..... maybe.